:: the same old plot. ::

:: Thursday, May 31, 2007 ::

last night i dreamt that i went to the bjork show again. except my ticket was for the wrong time and i ended up going alone and being late and i was really nervous. and the only people there were old people and they didn't like me. then i was saw someone i used to be really good friends with and i tried to get his attention but he ignored me and it made me really sad that not only was i nervous but totally alone. i have a very unhappy dream life. but, it should be said, that i am happy in life. i don't know why my subconcious is so bent on sabotage.

:: Tamlin 10:51 AM [+] ::
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day off day off day off day off.
it's beautiful today. i think i will to the beach and read. or maybe i will walk to the town and thrift. there are so many options and so much time and boy oh boy i do like the sun.

:: Tamlin 11:54 AM [+] ::
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i got off work late tonight. my feet smell a little funky. my hair feels really nice. my fingernails are pretty long. my eyes are a little dry. my knees kinda hurt.
i feel like i haven't done this for a while. i also feel like that doesn't really matter. it's hard to say who this is written for.
summer is a-starting. it's hard having a mid-week weekend. basically it means that no one can hang out with me on my days off and i'm forced to spend them with some lame boy. lame.
things are kind of coming together for september. though obviously whenever i think about it i am filled with anxiety and overwhelmed into a pleasant lazy apathy. i feel like i should sit down one day and make a huge list of all the things i need to assemble before i leave so that i can look at the list and get a handle on the nameless anxiety poisoning my grey matter. at least i can know if i'm behind or on schedule. there's an idea, i should make a schedule. the fact that i've applied for my passport is a huge relief. and not nearly as painful as i thought it would be. it actually made for quite a pleasant day.
helpful hints for those who actually read this: if you're getting your passport go to the richmond office after 2pm - apparently this is when there is no line up. good to find this out after i'd already waited outside since 6 in the morning. awesome.

:: Tamlin 12:35 AM [+] ::
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