:: the same old plot. ::

:: Thursday, June 16, 2005 ::

ARGH.
I hate studying. I don't even know what the word means. what is study? how is one supposed to do this? This abstract verb that is supposed to result in amazing achievements. and yet, what the hell is it? does it mean continuous reading with the added bonus of retention? because thats not happening. So does it mean re-writing everything? will that even do anything? what IS it? When people say, oh i'm studying, i have to go study, etc what are they DOING? i'm beginnig to think this is a mythical action, it doesn't really exist. like santa clause, it's just a rouse to make children behave better.
I'm four exams away from being done high school and the only thing I can think about when i'm supposed to be 'studying' and earning myself $3000 is the ice cream cake that is sitting in our deep freeze...dairy queen ice cream...cookie fudge center..oh dear god...which excites guilt and fears about fitting into a grad dress and being laughed at for looking like a beached whale upon arrival. All of these things PLUS the perfecting of a speech that still has no beginnning. which, by the way, if you have any suggestions for it would be greatly appreciated and possibly repaid with a plethora of good will coupons. AIYA.

i need a hug.

:: Tamlin 11:57 AM [+] ::
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